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Oh what to do, what to do?? Oh here's the problem. Ryan works a lot, everybody knows that. He works at least 12hr days if not 14hrs, which everyday this week but yesterday ( Friday ) he worked a 14hr day, yesterday he worked only 12hrs. His last day off was the 30th ( last Sunday ) and he had to go in at 2pm and then stayed till 8 for family night. No, I don't mind him working so much as long as he stays sweet when he comes home, and so far he has, in fact his attitude is better than I could have ever hoped for. He comes home with a smile, we laugh and joke and play around every night, we have dinner together and he always wants to help even though he just got home, he isn't cranky at all its amazing com paired to other years that we have been together its like he is a new person. I love it, he even wakes up with a smile, pulls me close and holds me for a few minutes before he gets out of bed. The point is no matter how tired he is he isn't being mean or grumpy, and I don't feel like I have to walk on egg shells in fear that I am going to make him mad.

But the problem is that our friends keep calling and wanting us to do stuff with them, and we feel bad because we keep saying No, and they are beginning to get mad. I just don't know how to get people to understand that Ryan is tired and just wants to rest when he gets off work. Winter is not a good time for us to hang out with people. Its Ryan's busy season and with the new store opening things are twice a busy, not a busy as Best Buy was but I would say 14hrs is a pretty busy day. Its not that we don't want to go to a movie or out to eat, or play pool, etc.... its just that he just wants to come home and sit, plus we don't really go to moves we just wait for them to come out on DVD, the we buy it :O) and Ryan doesn't want to be rude and fall asleep at someones house. Like last night he came home "early" we had dinner and he started to fall asleep in his apple pie, I had to take it away from him cuz I thought he would drop it. I rubbed his back for a bit and he was out like a light. It was 9:30pm. How bad would it have been if we were at someones house?? It's not that we are avoiding people, he just needs some time to catch up on some rest. And if he is feeling up to doing something we will call you. We want to have fun too.

And the reason I don't just go out with out him is because I want to spend as mush time with him as possible. He's my hubby, I love him and if I only get 45mins with him then I best he home to make sure its the be 45mins it can be.

So he works today, he is going to try and get off at 6pm, I really hope he does, and who knows maybe we will give you a call tonight to hang out or something, or maybe not. Just please don't get all pissed off, please understand that this just how it is, we love you all and if things were different we would totally be having fun with you, and when things calm down we will be.